I have always been very superstitious about New Years. For as long as can remember, I have believed that however I am feeling as the clock strikes 12, is how the rest of my year is going to be. And for the most part, it has worked out that way.
But I'm starting to wonder if maybe it has all been a self-fulfilling prophecy. Maybe the 'not so great' years I have had, have been mostly my own doing. It's more than likely.
Take New Years 2006 for example. I was in a very busy club (what was I thinking?!) having a very miserable time. As the clock struck 12, just as I had realised that I had managed to lose my friends and would be bringing in the New Year alone, a very drunk individual managed to pour his entire glass of wine down my back. And that was it. I decided then and there that my year was going to terrible. No matter what. And the year did turn out to be pretty ordinary. All because I was expecting it to be.
I ruined an entire year because someone spilt their drink down my back one night.
It is the same with New Year's Resolutions. Every year I have decided to change something about myself, then felt like a failure when that bad habit does not automatically disappear on January 1st. I have never met anyone who has actually kept to their New Year's Resolution. Seriously, whoever came up with the idea wasn't thinking clearly. We are expected to come up with a meaningful, manageable resolution New Years Eve when we're more likely than not to be quite intoxicated, then start it the next day when we are feeling the effects of said intoxication.
Not a good idea at all. Shame on the founder of New Year's Resolutions.
So I have no resolutions this New Year. The only thing I am going to do is try and enjoy the night. And if I don't, I'm going to remind myself that it's not the end of the world, nor an indicator of the coming year, cry a little bit inside and then move on.
I think it's high time I started shaking off some of my old superstitions and taking each day as it comes.
Ahh the benefits of growing up.
ps. what do you lovely people have planned for bringing in the New Year?