Tuesday, January 4, 2011

It's the little things

This is going to sound rather silly, but the one thing I have never been able to do is stop chewing my nails. And believe me, I have tried. Many times. And failed miserably every time.

These attempts have been happening over a span of 14 years. That is a whole lot of failure.

I have managed, over the course of the last year, to face many of my fears and get rid of many self-destructive habits. But the one thing I could not do was stop chewing my nails. That simple little thing was completely out of my reach.

Two weeks ago, one normal afternoon as I went to get a cup of coffee, I decided to stop chewing my nails once and for all. Nothing special had happened. I wasn't feeling particularly motivated. But I was tired of never doing anything to change my life. Of sitting around waiting for other people to solve my problems.

So I marched into a chemist and bought the 'stop &grow' nail polish that makes everything taste like poison.

And I stopped chewing my nails.

It wasn't even hard. Because I knew, I just knew, I was going to succeed. Because I finally felt strong enough to.

Out of everything I have done in life, I think that this would have to be my proudest achievement.

Because if I can stop chewing my nails, then I can do anything.

So I have taken a year off school. And I am going to save. And I am going to travel. And do everything I have always been afraid to do before.

Because I know now that if I just believe I can, I will succeed.

7 comments:

vintch said...

so, so inspiring! i am a lifelong nail biter! i can't rid myself of the habit:( you, my friend, have given me courage and hope, so thank you. thank you also for this beautiful post!

Brandi said...

You definitely will succeed. I don't like making new year's resolutions because I think then it's easy to make excuses and wait for a new year to come around to make changes. The change can happen at any moment. This year though, I needed the resolution, but it's one I'll make with myself every day.

soph (owl vs. dove) said...

That is such a great mindset. Wishing you all the best for 2011, and may you achieve everything you set out to do!

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Bonnie said...

That's a great idea. I have a bad habit of picking at my nails. I wish I could stop! I have tried many, many times, but I have been doing it my whole life. Ugh. Congratulations on quitting!

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chels.e. said...

good for you! it certainly seems like you have made some great accomplishments over the year, and congratulations on those, but i have to agree sometimes it is the "small" triumphs that make you realize how obtainable anything you set your mind to truely is. good luck with your new adventures!

Sara Louise said...

Awesome! I believe that we have to be ready for change to change. And as soon as we are, nothing can stop us :-)
Best of luck with your plans!