Thank you all for your comments, they were lovely! And definitely gave me a lot to think about. I realise now that it is possible to live off the things that you love; but also just as realistic to have a job you don’t love to support the hobbies that you do. Either way leads to happiness and fulfillment.
I was so exhausted on Friday, from thinking about all of this over and over again. I’m not going to lie, I was feeling a little bit down about it all. But late Friday night I stopped. I looked at where I am now. And realised that I’m happy. I’m working part-time in an office, I may not be living off my dreams just yet, but I’m still happy exactly where I am.
I don’t want to be one of those people who goes around saying ‘I’ll be happy if this happens”, or “I’ll be happy when I do this”. It’s all well and good to have goals, but I forgot last week to focus on the now. To make the most of what I already have.
I mean, I’m only 23. I am not set to finish uni for another year and a half. I have options. And goals. And ideas. But I don’t need to rush them quite so quickly. Just because I’m not doing all of them now, right this second, doesn’t mean I never will. Things take time.
And when it comes down to it, I am doing many of the things I love already. I may not be able to devote my life to them and pay my bills with them quite yet; but I still have the opportunity right now to live my dreams. I am able to write, sing, play piano, dance, create and change people’s lives.
So I guess, after all of that, I am already living the life I want. I have a solid foundation. All I have to do now is to keep building onto that foundation.
In the meantime, I am going to focus on the little things in life that keep me smiling every day. Things that we forget to appreciate in lieu of the bigger picture. The picture that may be completely different in a year. The picture that we put too much time and effort into sometimes, when it doesn't need to be that hard.
So to take a leaf out of Kim’s blog, Fill Your Well, here are the things I am grateful for this past week:
-Canberra holding onto sunshine for just a little bit longer
-tights, scarves and flowery dresses
-poached eggs with fake bacon and baby spinach. That’s how I know that the weekend is here
-enjoying the peace and quiet of the morning air
-freshly brewed organic coffee in the morning
-waking up to sunshine streaming through the windows and children laughing
-holding hands, even after five years
-the smell of freshly baked chocolate chip cookies (and eating a big bowl of the dough!)
-tea parties with friends; complete with pass-the-parcel, trivia, balloon-pop, board games, and LOTS of tea and homemade goodies
-winning cupcake & rainbow homemade brooches from the talented birthday girl in pass-the-parcel
-drinking too much wine and watching crazy English comedies Sunday night (though not so great Monday morning!)
-learning new songs on the keyboard
-cuddles from my cats
What are you grateful for this Monday morning?
Ps. Things I am not so grateful for: sitting cross legged on my chair at work as I write this because there is a crazy hyperactive spider running around on the floor...