The other day, while I was watching a movie with Joel, I decided to dramatically throw myself on the floor and loudly announce that I was sad. Joel ignored me, much to my displeasure. I sighed loudly and raised my voice (in case he had suffered temporary hearing loss). ‘I SAID, I’m SAD!!!’.
He looked at me unsympathetically.
‘No you’re not’
Me: ‘Yes I am. I'm very sad. I’m sad a lot of time. I might even have depression’
Joel (patiently): ‘No you’re not, and no you don’t’
Me (concedes): ‘Well.. I’m not sad... but I’m feeling AVERAGE’ (throws self face-down on the floor again)
Joel (*sighs, realising that he will not get to watch his movie in peace after all): Kaylia, you are the happiest person I know. BUT you can’t feel happy all the time. It’s not natural. Most people spend a lot of their time feeling average *
Me: And why can't I feel happy all the time?! There's no law against it! *glares*
Joel: (ignores me and gets back to movie)
But seriously, why CAN'T I feel happy all the time?! There is nothing stopping me. Why do we let ourselves get pulled down by things that will be unimportant to us in 5 minutes. We spend so much time worrying about things that would oh so much easier if we didn’t worry about them. Or lamenting our current situation rather than throwing caution to the wind and changing it. Or simply being a teensy bit dramatic about..everything. Life isn’t supposed to be as dramatic, and hard, and roller-coastery (yes it is a made up word, and yes it is awesome) as we make it. And if it is? Well then that's just stupid and I plan on changing it.
And so, this is what I have to say to all of the people in my life who have told me that I can’t be happy all the time because it isn’t ‘realistic’:
* Disclaimer: This is a very loose interpretation of what he said. I can’t remember the particulars at all. BUT that was the general gist of it.
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