Friday, May 6, 2011

why I will never give up coffee again

Two post in one day again? I'm becoming a bit of an addict...

As some of you may remember, I gave up coffee a while ago. But I had to give in today. It wasn’t the caffeine I missed. It wasn’t even the taste, or the smell. It was the experience. I missed it in the same way that I would miss birthday cake at a party, or mince pies and fruitcake at Christmas. I don’t much care for Christmas food and I hate cake, but eating these things makes me inexplicably happy.

Even just the smell of them causes wonderful memories to come flooding back. Because cake means happiness, laughter, celebration and love. Because Christmas food means family, board games, too much wine and Santa hats.

And my morning coffee to me means peace, relaxation, and some time to spend dreaming.

So I got up half an hour early this morning and made myself a cup. I let myself enjoy the smell of freshly brewed coffee as it filled our small, cosy kitchen. I smiled as I felt the warmth of the cup heat my hands, then trickle through my whole body.

I opened the curtains and let the sunshine pour through as I carried the cup to the table.

I sat back and enjoyed slowly sipping my coffee while I watched my kitten chase small dust particles floating in the sunlight, before she curled into a sleepy ball on the floor. I listened to my lover’s breath in the next room, and wrote sweet little messages to him on the frosted glass of our window. I enjoyed the sounds of the morning, the world awakening. I got out my gratitude journal and spent the next half an hour thinking of all of the wonderful things I have to be thankful for. And all of the wonderful things yet to come.

My heart has never felt so full as it did this morning.

40 comments:

Googlover/keishua said...

yeah! I think sometimes, you just have to do what makes you happy. if drinking you coffee helps you get your happy on--- sip away. That is the same way, I feel about potatoes. I want to give them up but I love them, so I won't.

ellie's desk said...

That's lovely, I must remember this when I am drinking a cup of coffee..but then again..I'm usually half asleep at this time.

lucy and sarah said...

Sweet post about your first cup of coffee in the morning. Loved the post. I'm that way about hot tea.

Young People in Love said...

I don't drink coffee but I L.O.V.E. the smell of freshly brewed coffee in the mornin! mmmmm....

Mary Grace said...

I love the way you describe your feelings for coffee.

Sara Louise said...

I feel much the same way as you described. For me, I'm not awake until I've had my coffee. It's not necessarily an addiction to caffeine, but my morning ritual that gets me going. I'm just not the same without it.

Sara Louise said...

I feel much the same way as you described. For me, I'm not awake until I've had my coffee. It's not necessarily an addiction to caffeine, but my morning ritual that gets me going. I'm just not the same without it.

SJ said...

i'm exactly the same. i don't NEED coffee, caffeine does very little to me, but when i get to work i enjoy leaving my desk and going to the coffee shop with my colleagues and having a little chat and getting away from our desks and getting our coffee.
it's the same on the weekend, i just love sitting there with the paper enjoying time off. it's alllll about the process :)

have a great weekend!

Jo said...

Hmmmm....what kind of coffee did you say you were drinking? ;) Kidding!
I totally get it. Sometimes when you allow yourself these little pleasures, they lend to (and open the door to) other pleasures. The senses...one always compliments so many others. It sounds like an amazing morning!
xox

becky said...

I know this is completely not the main point of this post but something I got a little stuck on was this: you DON'T like CAKE?! ;)

But really, lovely lovely words. I really, really like the idea of a gratitude journal! Such a good point to keeping one. I'm glad you've put something you love back into your life---it is always such a good feeling. xx

magdalena viktoria said...

Oooh, I'm the same way! I love the smell, color, the pleasure of drinking it. It used to be the same as cigarettes--not the nicotine, but the act itself (no more though!)
Coffee club for life.

jillian m. said...

Oh, I love absolutely everything about coffee. The warmth it gives the mug, the taste, the nostalgia. I don't even know how you gave it up!

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Jessica said...

I absolutely love this post. Congratulations on your cherished morning.

~BB~ said...

That sounds positively amazing. What a wonderful start to a day - it makes me want to start drinking coffee again!

Cat said...

I am with you...I could never ever give up coffee...it would be like giving up my chile {sort of...I am being a bit dramatic :) }

xx Cat brideblu

Alexa said...

What a wonderful post! Makes me want a cup of coffee...actually I need one, been awake since 4:30 am, thanks to a certain little baby in our house!
Ha.
Alexa
www.theshortandthesweetofit.com

Krystal said...

that is so true! it's totally the experience. i haven't been able to kick it either, I don't even think twice on rainy mornings..

Katie said...

I just want to say via blog comment that I absoulutely ADORE each and every single one of your comments. I get so excited when I see one. You have the sweetest things to say and I cherish each one. Thank you:)

Sienna said...

i agree, i could never give up coffee, and its actually healthy, in small doses :)

Aquí said...

Lovely piece of writing you're giving us today :) Its almost lunch time and I fell like I need a coffee break. Have a wonderful weekend!

Bonnie said...

I don't drink coffee, so I feel like I can't relate.
How sad.
:(
But I do like chocolate.
Does that work?

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christine donee said...

I hate coffee. Despise the taste.

But all I want right now is a large cup of that black liquid and to gaze out of a window, embracing the day.

What have you done to me? ;)

Kaylan said...

I feel the same way about coffee! I don't necessarily love the taste or crave the caffeine, but it's part of my routine. I want nothing more than to sit and enjoy a cup before I start my day. You will even hear me anxiously saying on days when I haven't found the time to start my day with a cup, "OMG. I can't function. I haven't had my coffee today." Hmm... I guess it is an addiction... or a good excuse for a break :)

Café Chick said...

I'd agree - the experience of drinking coffee is almost as good as the smell and taste. People say to me, "I need a coffee" and then pour themself another cup of instant. Euw! I allow myself one really good cup of coffee a day and savour the moment. Bliss!

koralee said...

Good for you my friend...I am the same way with tea..morning and night. xoxox hugs

Deidre said...

I love the smell of coffee! And i quite enjoy the ritual of other people making it - but caffeine makes me CRAZY.

Brandi {not your average ordinary} said...

That's how I feel about tea. If coffee makes you that happy, keep drinking it, though I'd say to let it be not too obsessively and frequently.

Sonja said...

Hmm, yeah for me coffee isn't habit or addiction. I just reeeeally like the taste! mmmm.
Sounds like you had a really nice, relaxing morning! :o)

Jazzy E (hivenn) said...

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Mimi said...

if it makes you feel as great as that, why should you give coffee up, right? ;)

<3, Mimi
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k come karolina said...

yes, the morning rituals with my coffee and laptop in the sun, on my balcony :)))



xoxo from rome
K.
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wilybrunette said...

i'm with you. i love the experience. grinding the beans, brewing it..the gurgle it makes. yes, its the experience.

Michelle said...

hey you tried! and lesson learned: you love coffee haa :) drink up!

misslikey said...

it's wonderful what you said. We often forget to be grateful. Your morning sounds like a great experience.
I am also great lover of the coffee. Total first morning coffee with soy latte and cigarette addict.
Lovely post

Chelsea Lane said...

this is the happiest thing I've read all week. in fact I think I shall bookmark it <3

xoxo

kimbirdy said...

oh yes! i couldn't agree more. sometimes it's coffee, sometimes tea, and sometimes chai lattes, but whatever the specific drink, i can't go a day without taking the time to sip something. the practice of slowing down with a soothing drink has become such a necessary part of my life now, and it's even better if i can take an afternoon to enjoy it out at a cafe.

Monica said...

i understand. there is peace in rituals.

have you considered decaf? or how about tea. the brewing of tea, or chai even better, is quite something special.

Olga said...

I know that coffee is my addiction. I love everything about the freshly brewed coffee. Even thinking about it makes me happy :)

Jenni Austria Germany said...

ah, love the last sentence. i've never had a cup of coffee. isnt that weird?