It’s strange, the amount of different personalities we possess. That is not to say that we are fake, or aren’t completely ourselves. But we choose which strengths and weaknesses to emphasise depending on the situation.
I certainly feel like I am the same person day in and day out. Growing and evolving yes. But inherently, deep down at my core, the same.
However, that being said, I feel like the people I work with wouldn’t recognise the person I am when I’m with my friends. The people in my dance class most certainly would not recognise the person I am with my family. And yet I feel as if I am the same person all the time.
I guess we’re all playing a part, choosing to show what is appropriate for the situation.
Is it better this way? Or are we stifling ourselves? I sometimes wonder if the happiest people are those who surround themselves only with people who love every part of them, the good and the bad.
Though I can tell you now, were I to act at work like I do at home I would not have a job.
So is it better to choose our job, school and social life in a manner that will allow us to be entirely free? Or do we need these social restrictions and rules to keep our feet on the ground and allow us to truly grow?
I’m not offering any arguments either way. I honestly have no idea. Just food for thought I guess.
But I have really begun to think about this since I started my blog. Because while I try to be completely honest, I have found I can’t be. While this blog does show one side of my personality, I have blocked out some other parts. It has become introspective, which is what I wanted initially yes, but it is not necessarily true to me.
To be honest...I’m not nearly so polite. I drink, swear, get insane road-rage, throw tantrums when I don’t get my own way, am not at all politically correct, enjoy horrible jokes, and occasionally pretend I’m in Sex and the City and discuss my sex life at inopportune moments that leave both myself and whoever I force fed the piece of information feeling extremely uncomfortable...
But when I find myself typing posts that may reveal the less savoury aspects of myself, I always swallow my courage and delete them.
I have managed to typecast myself, and into someone annoying bland as well.
Do we all do this? Are we all picking and choosing only those aspects that we don’t mind strangers seeing?
Or am I just playing it safe.
Either way, I’m overhauling this blog and it’s gonna get messy....
...or you know, maybe not. Depends on how I feel tomorrow :)